Target

Since I am officially employed in The Mines at a sport shoes shop located at 4th floor with Jun Meng. I guess getting myself an Xbox 360 250 GB Slim is no longer a huge issue. I’ll try my best to achieve my dream in about 2 or 3 months with more than half of my salary.

I’ve made a short calculate and discovered that my total salary is about RM864 and above. Not to mention, I’ll get bonus during the Chinese New Year festival though I couldn’t spend time with the girls, but whatever. My current feeling is sort of excited and nervous. I don’t really know whether if I can overcome every consequence during work. I might get scolded or maybe encounter an embarrassing moment. We’ll see.

So far, I'm kind of fed up with the other jobs that never actually gave us any response. I think they should have at least sms us that they don't have the intention to hire us. Otherwise we'll end up giving ourselves a fake hope or keep wasting time sitting at home just to wait for their phone call. This is call responsibility.

Christmas Eve

May your Christmas be filled with joy and happiness. Best wishes for now and the coming year.

Merry Christmas! :D

PS:/ I did not enjoy it. In fact, this is the worse Christmas I ever had in 17 years.

Details

One more week to go before Youth Alpha VIII is officially running with 28 returning youths from previous seasons. I’ve met the contestants whom Mark & I are going to compete with when we had a rehearsal the other day, which coursed me 2 hours late from a dinner with friends at Milwaukee. This season features 4 Muslim youths from Season 3; Ida & Natasha and Daniel & Zulkifli. African Malaysian siblings from Season 4; April & Jonathan. Hungarian Malaysian blondies from Season 7; Paula & Wendy and Sarawakean friends from Season 6; Anita & Vincent and Blythe from Season 7. Others are being Chinese and Indian. It should be fun with different races in the game.

The picture above is what we called a “leaderboard”. The leaderboard serves as a schedule indicates how long the team survives throughout the program. Well, this schedule is planned and created by George, our producer, as he showed it to us during the rehearsal. So, I copied it with Microsoft Office. I was so surprised at Leg 5, though. I think that’s a double elimination. Although the schedule says 10 legs, but I guess we probably will be away from home for more than 10 days due to travelling time (unless we lose earlier).

Vacancy

My high school life will be ended on next Monday, 4:30 in the afternoon. I no longer have to wake up early when the sun is still asleep, dressing the old boring school uniform and carry a bag on my back which stored with heavy books.

It’s time to begin a new chapter of my life for the next three months before I can get my SPM certificate. I was in a mission searching for a job a couple of days ago with several friends of mine; Jun Meng, Wen Sern, Yushen, Pai Kai and Tiong Hong, in The Mines. I’ve to say that our attempt did not fail us; all of us have found at least one job, but we still need to wait for their response though I think they won’t call us anyway. So, I guess this is just temporarily good news for us.

I’ll continue my mission in Mahkota Jusco, just in case. I don’t really mind the salary to be honest, as long as I’ve something to do rather than staying at home become mildewed like a bread, it’s fine.

Freedom

I can smell my freedom not a quite distance from here, this mean that my SPM year is almost over once this remaining lame subject has accomplished; Economics. Time flies by very swiftly, we kept complaining how the time moved so slow as a snail during our first day of SPM trial. Now, we just need to wait for another week before we can officially burn our books down.

I don't know how to describe my current feeling in words. Sometimes i feel very excited but sometimes i don't. It's like a roller coaster, up and down repetition. I think it is because the world has lose the lively noises and activities. Everything is just the same old route as a radio with record function.

Blog

It has been a year plus since the first time I started to blog about my life. I’ve to admit that whenever I browse through my older posts, I frequently find myself laughing at my so called proper grammar or confusing sentences that I don’t even understand what I’ve written. Apparently, my writing skill is getting better each time the time passes after making a self improvement by watching English movies, reading novels and playing video games. In some cases, I learnt from my English teacher, Pn. Habibah.

Now, my blog has consisted of 215 posts and still counting. If I despite my lousy grammar when browsing through the older posts, I would realize that I’ve put myself in a jolly life with several best friends and relatives of mine. Yes, blog is a webpage where I could trigger my mind; flashback everything from what I've attempted, both in positive and negative.

Concurrently, blog does help me reduce stress by expressing my feeling towards a thing or a human including anger, sadness and even jealousy.

Memories serve as a treasure in our life. I wonder how would i express when i get older and have a look at my blog again :(

Life’s Brief Candle

This poem introduced in our life during our junior year of high school back to 2006. The poem itself does make sense from up to down and teaches us how we must appreciate our life as we only given one chance to live. For me, I see my life as a drama show that usually shown on TV every weekday, we couldn’t light out what sort of consequences will visit us regardless of good news or bad news.

This afternoon, I discovered one of my favorite YouTube entertainers died from a deceased. What makes it worse is that he already ascended into heaven for almost a year, leaving me unknowingly about his loss. Until now, I still couldn’t accept the fact that he has gone, gone for eternity, no more exchanging messages habit. He seemed perfectly fine when I watch his last video where I learnt about his death through the comments. As always, showing his generous smile and happily enjoy filming himself in Japan.

Rodger Swan, died at the age of 23 in Hanamaki, Japan. I stumbled across his videos by accidentally while I was searching a video about Shenmue (an Xbox game) last year. Learning that he had several common interests with me such as loved Japanese horror movies, liked English literature, enjoyed playing Shenmue games, fond of Japanese culture including manga and anime. I quickly felt interested on his future videos after that. All of his videos dedicated to his life in Japan as an exchange student in Tokyo, later a year or two, as an English teacher of three different schools in Hanamaki. Other than that, he also did review for Japanese horror movies.

This guy DOES NOT deserve to be taken away, not in a young age nor having a pure heart. You can see him smiling all the time by watching his video and trust me; it was a natural smile. Starting from January, I never seen any new video of his pop out from my subscription and I assumed that he must be very busy. Then, the truth came out… and it is the saddest thing I ever learnt…

R.I.P Rodger Swan

If you happen to be a Japanese lover, you should watch his videos either on Yotube (simply type Tokyo Swan 1) or on his blog which can be found in my Bff's list on the right hand side.…

I've learnt one thing from his death; when you wanna achieve your goal or fulfill your dream, just go for it, don't wait as time won't stop by and say hello to you... This is why i said enjoy your life to the maximum...

A memorial video that made from a fan. It touches me multiple times...

Today, I learnt about a young Malaysian guy who took his own life after being broke up with his girlfriend. Did I feel sorry for him? NO. I told you before; whoever commits suicide with any reason is an idiot or just a coward and not supposed to be sympathy with. Instead, I’d laugh them for choosing a real stupid decision. I can't believe that some people actually treat him like a hero. I mean, he gave up his own life just because of lost love? WHAT THE FUCK? Then what about Rodger whom trying to inspire the world but died very abruptly? Human can be real stupid sometimes..

Present & Future

The time is clicking and 2010 is gonna fly soon, I am currently sitting for a huge exam of my life with more than 1000 students across Malaysia, namely SPM. This exam would determine our future route whether if we had the potential for continuing our education in University or College, so it’s normal if you see someone in stress. However, majority of SPM candidates including myself are in a delighted mood throughout the exam as if nothing happened at all. It’s not a bad thing, though. Being relaxation could help us think positively which able to bring advantage during the progress of an exam.

For me, the exam has no different compare with ordinary assessments. The only thing that makes this different was the name, SPM. So far, I had completed 6 subjects, leaving only 3 elective subjects remain untouched, for some, 4, if the candidate picked Chinese language. In truthfully, Lee Cheng and I only left 2 since we decided to skip Account, one of the useless subjects that are completely unrelated to our goal.

I’ve the spirit that I probably will get at least one “A”, three if I was lucky for those subjects that I really paid a lot of efforts on its. For now on, achieving “A” is no longer a matter, as long as I manage to pass the minimum requirements in order to join my dream school, SAE Institutes, I’ll be glad.

After this exam, I shall enjoy my Christmas week along with my dear family and friends before setting off for a serious competition, Youth Alpha Season 8. A graduation party for 5A is a MUST program in my thoughts. We currently would like to make this happen at Bukit Merah, Taiping. All thanks to Rahiman’s suggestion which seems fun and ton of activities awaiting for us to be performed. Although I knew the amount would be incredible expensive and shocking, but… money is not the matter but the strong FRIENDSHIP and BRO/SISTERHOOD.