Freedom

I can smell my freedom not a quite distance from here, this mean that my SPM year is almost over once this remaining lame subject has accomplished; Economics. Time flies by very swiftly, we kept complaining how the time moved so slow as a snail during our first day of SPM trial. Now, we just need to wait for another week before we can officially burn our books down.

I don't know how to describe my current feeling in words. Sometimes i feel very excited but sometimes i don't. It's like a roller coaster, up and down repetition. I think it is because the world has lose the lively noises and activities. Everything is just the same old route as a radio with record function.

Blog

It has been a year plus since the first time I started to blog about my life. I’ve to admit that whenever I browse through my older posts, I frequently find myself laughing at my so called proper grammar or confusing sentences that I don’t even understand what I’ve written. Apparently, my writing skill is getting better each time the time passes after making a self improvement by watching English movies, reading novels and playing video games. In some cases, I learnt from my English teacher, Pn. Habibah.

Now, my blog has consisted of 215 posts and still counting. If I despite my lousy grammar when browsing through the older posts, I would realize that I’ve put myself in a jolly life with several best friends and relatives of mine. Yes, blog is a webpage where I could trigger my mind; flashback everything from what I've attempted, both in positive and negative.

Concurrently, blog does help me reduce stress by expressing my feeling towards a thing or a human including anger, sadness and even jealousy.

Memories serve as a treasure in our life. I wonder how would i express when i get older and have a look at my blog again :(

Life’s Brief Candle

This poem introduced in our life during our junior year of high school back to 2006. The poem itself does make sense from up to down and teaches us how we must appreciate our life as we only given one chance to live. For me, I see my life as a drama show that usually shown on TV every weekday, we couldn’t light out what sort of consequences will visit us regardless of good news or bad news.

This afternoon, I discovered one of my favorite YouTube entertainers died from a deceased. What makes it worse is that he already ascended into heaven for almost a year, leaving me unknowingly about his loss. Until now, I still couldn’t accept the fact that he has gone, gone for eternity, no more exchanging messages habit. He seemed perfectly fine when I watch his last video where I learnt about his death through the comments. As always, showing his generous smile and happily enjoy filming himself in Japan.

Rodger Swan, died at the age of 23 in Hanamaki, Japan. I stumbled across his videos by accidentally while I was searching a video about Shenmue (an Xbox game) last year. Learning that he had several common interests with me such as loved Japanese horror movies, liked English literature, enjoyed playing Shenmue games, fond of Japanese culture including manga and anime. I quickly felt interested on his future videos after that. All of his videos dedicated to his life in Japan as an exchange student in Tokyo, later a year or two, as an English teacher of three different schools in Hanamaki. Other than that, he also did review for Japanese horror movies.

This guy DOES NOT deserve to be taken away, not in a young age nor having a pure heart. You can see him smiling all the time by watching his video and trust me; it was a natural smile. Starting from January, I never seen any new video of his pop out from my subscription and I assumed that he must be very busy. Then, the truth came out… and it is the saddest thing I ever learnt…

R.I.P Rodger Swan

If you happen to be a Japanese lover, you should watch his videos either on Yotube (simply type Tokyo Swan 1) or on his blog which can be found in my Bff's list on the right hand side.…

I've learnt one thing from his death; when you wanna achieve your goal or fulfill your dream, just go for it, don't wait as time won't stop by and say hello to you... This is why i said enjoy your life to the maximum...

A memorial video that made from a fan. It touches me multiple times...

Today, I learnt about a young Malaysian guy who took his own life after being broke up with his girlfriend. Did I feel sorry for him? NO. I told you before; whoever commits suicide with any reason is an idiot or just a coward and not supposed to be sympathy with. Instead, I’d laugh them for choosing a real stupid decision. I can't believe that some people actually treat him like a hero. I mean, he gave up his own life just because of lost love? WHAT THE FUCK? Then what about Rodger whom trying to inspire the world but died very abruptly? Human can be real stupid sometimes..

Present & Future

The time is clicking and 2010 is gonna fly soon, I am currently sitting for a huge exam of my life with more than 1000 students across Malaysia, namely SPM. This exam would determine our future route whether if we had the potential for continuing our education in University or College, so it’s normal if you see someone in stress. However, majority of SPM candidates including myself are in a delighted mood throughout the exam as if nothing happened at all. It’s not a bad thing, though. Being relaxation could help us think positively which able to bring advantage during the progress of an exam.

For me, the exam has no different compare with ordinary assessments. The only thing that makes this different was the name, SPM. So far, I had completed 6 subjects, leaving only 3 elective subjects remain untouched, for some, 4, if the candidate picked Chinese language. In truthfully, Lee Cheng and I only left 2 since we decided to skip Account, one of the useless subjects that are completely unrelated to our goal.

I’ve the spirit that I probably will get at least one “A”, three if I was lucky for those subjects that I really paid a lot of efforts on its. For now on, achieving “A” is no longer a matter, as long as I manage to pass the minimum requirements in order to join my dream school, SAE Institutes, I’ll be glad.

After this exam, I shall enjoy my Christmas week along with my dear family and friends before setting off for a serious competition, Youth Alpha Season 8. A graduation party for 5A is a MUST program in my thoughts. We currently would like to make this happen at Bukit Merah, Taiping. All thanks to Rahiman’s suggestion which seems fun and ton of activities awaiting for us to be performed. Although I knew the amount would be incredible expensive and shocking, but… money is not the matter but the strong FRIENDSHIP and BRO/SISTERHOOD.

I WANT THESE TOOLS, LIKE, RIGHT NOW! D:

A Trip to Penang- Day 1- Part 2

Relatives Visiting

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Together we went out for breakfast along with Dennis at eight in the morning. We returned to the restaurant where we used to eat back to 2006 and 2007. The service was sucks as ittook them so long to notice that we haven’t ordered any drinks. Besides that, some of them had no manners too. We ate a few plates of simple dim sum and other foods like Curry Noodle and Chicken Rice. My mom bought two packets of Wan Tan Mee for the sleeping couple at home while my uncle bought Kue Tiao Soup for my grandaunt whom suffering from illness.

Once we were back, the youngsters like me mustered around in the room to discuss where we should go after we had wash up, still, we currently had no special plan. Then my father said that we should visit his younger brother and his family in Chai Leng Park, and my face was like “nooooo!” because I hated their sons who were my cousins.

(My father was the owner of this house before he officially soldit to his younger brother once my grandfather passed away, lots of dramas occured)

It didn’t take long when we reached their house since it only 3km far from my 4th grandaunt’s house. Daniel and my parents introduced some places to Ah Ying such as the places where my brothers used to visit when they were kids before I was born; it was quite annoying, though. We got a “warm welcomed” from my cousins and aunt. As I stood in the house, there was a huge television placed near from the main door, and Inoticed that there was a slim version of PS2 resting on the floor. There was another smaller sized television placed on the opposite side beside thecomputer. And two sets of cushions placed between them, each facing at one TVs. The whole setting looked like an airport ==


It just passed five minutes and I already got bored and irritating cause my parents chatted with my uncle and aunt in high volume. Plus, their sons were like a wild animal where they screamed and running around the house for nothing. Luckily, there were numerous Doraemon comic books for me to read. Soon later, we were planning to cross over the infamous Penang Bridged to the Penang Island. But the plan was cut off and delayed because my parents received an unpleasant news that my father’s uncle suffering from nose cancer which caused his eyes went blind.


So, we proceeded to his house at Kulim along with both of my uncle and aunt. Weird, wasn’t this supposed to be a trip? How come it turned to family visiting? His house was nice, but a little empty that you could produce encore whenever you speak. His daughter and granddaughter were there too, making the house looked like a minor party. It seemed that our main character was my father’s blinded uncle. But for some reasons, the main character suddenly switched to a place in Cameron Highlands where they talked about their plan to Cameron Highlands during the next Chinese New Year.

(The man in white shirt is the patient)

It was noon when my parents decided to leave and have lunch with my uncle and aunt. We went to the nearby famous Duck Rice restaurant where we ate Duck Rice (duh). My father described the restaurant as “famous”, supposedly the Duck Rice must be delicious, but I tasted nothing special, literally nothing special. After that, we returned to Chai Leng Park and the “Concert” back to live again, so freaking noisy ==

I didn’t know how much times had flied away since I fell asleep as my brothers and Ah Ying were reading comics and my parents… you know, having a concert with my uncle and aunt. My cousins went out for tuition except the eldest one, who had dropped out from school and went out for work at a shopping mall called “Pacific” since then.

Eventually, my parents stood up and decided to leave (I’m gonna thanks Jesus for that). We went to my eldest grandaunt’s house which just across the street at the back. And I continued exploring my dream world as my parents had another concert with my grandaunt. Fortunately, the visit was shorter than the previous ones and we off to Bukit Mertajam for lunch number 2.

Our lunch number 2 was the infamous Asam Laksa, ABC, Hokkien Mee, Fried Mee and Curry Mee. Trust me; if you’re not a big fan of spicy food, Penang is not a tea of cup for you. Although the weather was quite warm, but nothing could stop me from filling my stomach with these spicy noodles, lol. Being as a normal girl, Ah Ying said that she guarantee will gain lots of weight from these unstoppable meals.

Our final stop was at my 6th grandaunt’s house which just located near my old secondary school, SMKBBSL. Similar to the prior visits, boring as hell, the only persons that actually enjoyed was my parents. Later on, we returned to Tambun intended to unlock the door as we failed the task last night, still, no luck with us and eventually gave up. We spent the remaining evening napping at the flat where we lived last night. I was so frustrated that why we had to end up like this? Simultaneously, I missed KL and my friends, acted like I got trapped in another world…

The sun had already sunk down to the west when I finally woke up from napping. Since we unable to unlock the house where we supposedly sleep in our original plan, my father decided to spend the remaining days at his younger brother’s house. That was the time when I felt like wanna commit suicide. I kept complaining that I shouldn’t come. Why Wen Sern, Why? Why you didn’t inform me that you only went to Melaka for one day?! D:

Before we officially moved to their house, my brother brought us to the shopping mall that I mentioned earlier, Pacific. Apparently, the shopping mall looked like an indoor night market to me. It was as confuse as Sg. Wang. That’s why we off to dinner after 45 minutes of wandering around aimlessly. We went to a restaurant which used to be a cinema back to my parents’ period. We ate lots of foods that I couldn’t recall their names. Well, just view the pictures below which already forward the message.

Since there was no any other activity that we could perform as it was already quite late, we revisited my uncle, aunt and my cousins. Luckily, we were sent to an aircond room where it used to belong to my late grandfather who had passed away when I was Standard 6. Because of that, all of my family members had gone to bed except for me and my cousins. Forgot to mention, I brought my Xbox with me as well. So, we played “Ninja Turtle” in 3 players before I gone to bed.

A Trip to Penang- Day 1- Part 1

I decided to describe this lame trip that i had few weeks ago since i was bored and intended to type something very eagerly. This post might break the record for being the longest post ever in my blog. So, be prepared to suffer the confusion, lol. Sorry for the crappy quality for the photos given, i utilized my mobile phone to shoot. Day 1 is separated into 2 parts.

Insomnia

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It took me some times before I had finally finished packing my stuff for the 3 days 2 nights trip to my hometown, Penang, the second smallest state in Malaysia after Perlis. Actually, it didn’t really consider as a trip to me since I had visited this state for countless times and eventually get bored of it. Moreover, I was born in Penang and used to stay there for about two years in 2006 and 2007. I don’t exactly know what the main purpose was for going back there, though. In addition, one of my classmates, Nishallini, also went to Penang to attend her relative’s wedding ceremony on the same day as me, lol.

It was night time when we officially embarking on a journey to Penang, I couldn’t attempt almost everything in the car under the moonlight. All I did was sms-ing with Nisha and Nina; it was an incredible boring journey if you asked me. But thanks to my eldest brother, Daniel, who drove in great speed which only took us 4 hours to reach there.

Once there, it was already one in the morning. That was the time where my luck started to fade off. Our original plan was to stay in my grandma’s (the one that staying in Sg. Long) second house which took place in Tambun. Unfortunately, we couldn’t unlock the main door due to the lock had some sort of problem that we couldn’t rotate the key. So, my mom suggested that we should stay at one of our relative’s house and come back and try again by tomorrow.

I wasn’t really pleased when I heard this idea as I disliked staying at my Penang relative’s house. In truthfully, I DISLIKED them. At first, my mom tried to contact my 6th grandaunt since their house was the nearest from where we were. Somehow, none of them answer the phone. So, my father contacted his only younger brother. Unfortunately, his son’s friends beat us first. Later, my mom managed to contact my 4th grandaunt and eventually found a place for us to rest for a day.

It might sound like good news, but…. my 4th grandaunt’s house was a flat, which seemed like a small room for hamster. There was only one room provided, another one was belonged to my grandaunt and her husband. We got no choice but half of us required to sleep in the living room on the couch. My mom, Daniel and his girlfriend, whom I referred her as Ah Ying, slept in the room while Dennis (my elder brother), my father and I slept on the couch. For some reason, I’m the only one who couldn’t get my eyes closed. So, I grabbed out Nina’s novel that she borrowed me in school and intending to finish it by that night.

Hours later, it was already five in the morning, and my eyes were finally ready to shut down. Haplessly, the mosque nearby the flats started to alarm the Muslim prayers, caused me unable to sleep at all. I pulled myself up from the couch and decided to wait till the sun rises up. During that time, both of my parents and my uncle had woke up.

Youth Alpha VIII: The Aftermath

Teams
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1. Cassandra & Margaret (Season 1)
2. John & Henry (Season 1)
3. Deric & Mark (Season 2)
4. Sean & Tiana (Season 2)
5. Daniel & Zulkifli (Season 3)
6. Ida & Natasha (Season 3)
7. Andrea & Benedict (Season 4)
8. April & Jonathan (Season 4)
9. Erwin & Kevin (Season 5)
10. Irene & Terrance (Season 5)
11. Anita & Vincent (Season 6)
12. Desiree & Elena (Season 6)
13. Blythe & Solomon (Season 7)
14. Paula & Wendy (Season 7)

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Our producer, George has decided to dub this season as “The Aftermath” instead of “All Stars” since sound very ordinary, lol. The list above are all the 14 chosen teams from past editions stage a comeback for the upcoming season of Youth Alpha which will be held in this late December. Surprisingly, every contestant are at least 17 and above, this makes me, Mark, Sean, Tiana and several other participants become the youngest contestants for this season. This season is also the second installment to include non- Christian youths while Season 3 being the first.

This season features 25 most frustrating tasks from past installments. In my season, there were only 2 tasks that actually frustrated me, Community Service and Fund Raising, introduced in Klang. Both of these tasks nearly got Mark & I get eliminated sooner than our original final placement, 5th. Now I need to close my palms and pray to God that I won’t visit these tasks again which might ultimately fail my team. The rules are quite strict this time, last time we were allowed to bring handphone and laptop or whatever as we travel around. Now, no more, all those technology stuff must stay at home. :C

Swim

This morning I went for a swim with 6 other male friends of mine; Pai Kai, Lee Cheng, Jun Meng, Tiong Hong, Kah Chin & Yih Su, near at Chee Keong’s house which is a condo in Sg. Long. I actually don’t feel like wanted to take participate since I hated being half naked in public, but after a second thought, this could be our last outdoor activity before the arriving of SPM, so why not?

The activity was kind of fun but nothing special at all, really. The only funny thing was that Jun Meng has a phobia of water which sort of surprised me as I thought he was just joking around. He seemed very afraid to stand on solo in the middle of the pool, caused him spent most of his time at the side pool only. We did try to teach him the basic method to swim. However, due to his scared meter was incredible high, he unable to relax his body while teaching him to float. Jun Meng is afraid of anything as I recall our previous activities, he’s afraid of dark, height, dog and now the newest discovery; water.

The pool was as cold as an ice as if I were being trapped in the Atlantic Ocean where more than 300 Titanic victims died from hypothermia. That was weird actually, swimming pool supposely to provide warm water, but how come this one has special “treatment”? Poor service I guess. I kept trembling throughout the whole afternoon even though my body had dried out. Plus, today was a windy day, increased the coldness to the maximum. That's why i was very afraid to get down to the pool for once again. Although i did in the end, lol.

The rest of the time we were just chatting about school life or just intending to throw someone down to the water. Lol. The activity ended with a short lunch at a Mamak Store in Sg. Long.

InFamous 5A

2 more months before 30 of us finally grow a pair of wings and set a journey to different path in the real world. It’s been quite an interesting year as we have gone through from the early January ‘till present. We have share in our joys, tears, dramas, as well as ups and downs within these 10 months. Those are the only reasons of why I couldn’t unfold a 100% of delighted face when comes to graduation. In my personal opinion, I always see 5 Amanah as the most fascinating class among the Form 5 classes because of;

Colorful Character

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Numerous of characters can be seen in 5A. The first would be class clown; this title should be granted to either Pai Kai or Jun Meng as they like to provoke jokes in the class occasionally. Though the Malay boys do tell joke, but mostly none us could really get their line or maybe the joke is kind of offended, lol. A rebel gang, this is directly demonstrated to all the “Six Club” members as we often disobey to the class teachers regardless how high is their status in SMKBBSL. Nerd, when I think of that, my mind would just picture of Yih Su, Jing Guan and several other students. Like seriously, they always maintain their high ranked seats in every assessment, totally crazy! Drama queen, nobody could snatch away the 5A's drama crown from the Chinese girls such as Kai Yeng (whom we normally refer her as Miao Miao) and Xue Er (she somehow gained a nickname called 丰满). The girls usually scream in the class even though there is nothing really happen around, or maybe it does have, just a minor case. Narcissist, this only happen to Jun Meng, Kah Chin and sometime myself where we constantly praise ourselves for being the most attracting student in 5A. Novel buff, I could be the shining example for this, I spend my time (especially those classes that I dislike) on reading English novel instead of paying attention to the class. Artistic, Wen Sern and Gold Fish are probably the only students in 5A that actually enjoy drawing. Redeemer, Cindy is like my first female Angelic friend due to her innocent face and never swears. This is not a lie; I never ever heard of her saying “Shit” or “Kanasai” these two words. All of these characteristics combined into one just make the class as interesting as a horror movie <<< (for me, lol)

Spurious Affection

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Romance could be the most wonderful thing that can be found on earth, but when you come to 5A, you must have a second thought. Every kind of odd relationship that you name it probably has already occurred in 5A, such as interracial relationship. One of the most popular romance go to Gold Fish and her secret crush, Zim Zim : D Until now, none of the members from 5A could actually wipe this fact away from our mind. Another amusing interracial relationship happened on me and Shuhazlin; this was all caused by our form teacher, Pn. Maya. But for some reason, we both actually kind of enjoy being a spurious couple, lol.

In addition, some of us did manage to create FALSE relationship between Kah Chin & Xiao Xin, Jun Meng & Naomy, Lee Cheng & 丰满, Wen Sern & Cindy and Pai Kai & Zhi Ying. Do not take these in personal; it’s just a joke, of course. Besides that, 5A does have fake homosexual relationship; it’s me and Pai Kai, lol. We both do have a son, Wen Sern, and a granddaughter who happens to be a Gold Fish. What a happy family, LOL.

Facebook Community

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I created a group on Facebook which specialized for all my fellow classmates in 5A. That group is meant for us to share our thought about school, discuss an event or forward an important message to one another, and yeah, we did utilize that group pretty well. Sometimes, I’ll re-edit our school examination schedule by using Microsoft Office to remove all the subjects that are unrelated to us, and then I’ll post it online and share to my friends which will help them reduce confusion. This is what I call a 21st century method. I must thanks to my fellow friends that actually make this group alive unlike other classes’ ones, which already dead like centuries ago. I also do hope that this group could help us strengthen up our strong friendship and never loosen even right after SPM ‘till eternity. I actually planning to create a community blog for us where we can post whatever we want, but I think it will fail badly since majority of us are not interested in blogging.

I wonder how would the next generation of 5A will look like? LOL